"D" Cup Choc Cake

First time in my life that I got commented that I'm skinny to the extend that I look anorexic. It was just a day or two after I was fully recovered from indigestion or whatsoever that I got. I knew I lost weight the moment I saw myself in the mirror, even I got shocked from what I saw. It was that bad. I lost about 2kgs, the last time I weighed this light was few years ago after the break up. Even bra felt loose after my sickness.
Having a few tasks on hand, wonder when am I really gonna start working on them. To write up program notes/ descriptions of my songs that I'm gonna perform, to go search for the "magical scarf" for choir use, to start practicing a Beethoven sonata.
I'm in a good mood today, which is rare for me as I considered myself to be quite an emotional person. Students are doing fine, new students brought new sparks into working life, making work day more interesting for me. Its always fun and motivating to have students who's very keen to learn.
As for dinner, it was my very first time to dine in Chili's. And I was right in the mood for dessert. Seldom take dessert nowadays as I'm very cautious of what I eat, usually skip fattening food. So dinner we ordered ceasar salad and cajun chicken sandwich to share. Was kinda looking forward to my dessert as I craving for the chocholate lava cake. Well, usually the choc lava cake that we have in normal cafe or cake houses or even restaurant is about the size of a small bowl, don't you agree? And yes, that was what i THOUGHT it would be, what I had in mind. So I happily waved the waiter over and made my order. About 10mins later, the waiter came out with our dessert, and man you should have seen MY FACE. I was in shocked, that the choc lava cake was the size of a BIG bowl topped with a HUGE scoop of vanilla ice cream. I wanted to swear on the Holy Mother of God, this is one huge cake, but the closeone was just playing with his iPad, like nothing is outta place or funny. It was our epic moment, both of us was rather full, and we had a huge cake to finish up.
Now, i shall give you a narration of how I described the choc lava cake.

Me:" Bii!! why didn't you warn me about the cake!? Did you know its THAT big??!!"
Closeone:asamatteroffacttone" yea I'd knew about the size. But I thought you wanted dessert. You said you never had dessert for a very long time, so I let you have it."
Me:" But...we're so full!! Why didn't you tell me!!!! Whhyyyy!!!!
Closeone:" You wanted it."
Me:" omfg...You should have seen my face the moment the cake was out!! It was so big!! Even bigger than my boobs!! I think its D cup lor if you wanna compare like that!"
Closeone was laughing:" I like how you describe it. It damn funny!!"
Me:"...."

Now, you would wonder why do I relate it to the size of my boobs. The chocolate sauce on top of the vanilla ice cream was frozen after awhile. I used my spoon to knock on the chocolate coating, and the choc cake was shaking like the boobs of a lady when she was running. I bet you already have that picture in your mind. And to top it off, its size was bigger than my boobs *sad but true*.

So I've lived up to my aim, to do something bout me looking anorexic, by trying to eat more.

The Girl That Never Know What She Wants

An average Saturday today, only difference was working hours were shorter than my any usual Saturdays, many thanks to the government schools that were busy doing replacement classes and exams. Met up with a good friend of mine, spend some good time catching up.
Many things changed, something hasnt; thegirlthatneverknowwhatshewants i still am. Sometimes I wish I'm strong-willed, I thought I was. Funny how much you wanted something when you don't have it, but when its yours you're not sure if that's what you really one. Human is one greedy lot. Its not that I'm not able to stand on my own feet, maybe I'm too comfy leaning against something/someone else.
The drive back home has become more of a reflex motor action, rather one that needed much thought to bring into action. My mind pondered away while driving, like i said, not a thought needed, its just reflexes. I thought about how I was, and how I am, now. Predictable as always, that's just who I am; but darker than before, maybe I've lost someone i trully can talk to, rant to, whatever you wish to address it. As much as I wish to tell the closeone about my everyday, just for sharing if you know what i mean, most of the time I just simply don't feel like it, or being lazy about it. Slowly I've learn to close up many thoughts and feelings to myself, petty lil' immature thoughts they are. And while not really concerntrating much on my driving, suddenly I noticed stupid slow-poke drivers on the road pissed me off big time. Stop obstructing the road/traffic if you wish to take you grandma's time to drive, or at least be considerate, move to the slow lane. It was like, my mind was instantly switched on, cutting away those that were obstructing the traffic-me, and only to realize, what a dangerous driver I am.
Here it is, my very first post after a long hiatus in blogging world. I'll attempt to delete my previous blogs as I believe they serve no purpose now.