An average Saturday today, only difference was working hours were shorter than my any usual Saturdays, many thanks to the government schools that were busy doing replacement classes and exams. Met up with a good friend of mine, spend some good time catching up.
Many things changed, something hasnt; thegirlthatneverknowwhatshewants i still am. Sometimes I wish I'm strong-willed, I thought I was. Funny how much you wanted something when you don't have it, but when its yours you're not sure if that's what you really one. Human is one greedy lot. Its not that I'm not able to stand on my own feet, maybe I'm too comfy leaning against something/someone else.
The drive back home has become more of a reflex motor action, rather one that needed much thought to bring into action. My mind pondered away while driving, like i said, not a thought needed, its just reflexes. I thought about how I was, and how I am, now. Predictable as always, that's just who I am; but darker than before, maybe I've lost someone i trully can talk to, rant to, whatever you wish to address it. As much as I wish to tell the closeone about my everyday, just for sharing if you know what i mean, most of the time I just simply don't feel like it, or being lazy about it. Slowly I've learn to close up many thoughts and feelings to myself, petty lil' immature thoughts they are. And while not really concerntrating much on my driving, suddenly I noticed stupid slow-poke drivers on the road pissed me off big time. Stop obstructing the road/traffic if you wish to take you grandma's time to drive, or at least be considerate, move to the slow lane. It was like, my mind was instantly switched on, cutting away those that were obstructing the traffic-me, and only to realize, what a dangerous driver I am.
Here it is, my very first post after a long hiatus in blogging world. I'll attempt to delete my previous blogs as I believe they serve no purpose now.
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